She's Gone.

[sasha_dragon]

I have some sad news its something I'm still trying very hard to come to terms with, but this morning my dog Sasha died.

I woke up early to the sound of silence, usually I can hear either Kizzy or Sasha snoring by the bed, but today there was nothing. I suddenly had a bad feeling and sat up, it was then I saw Sasha lying full length beside the bed. She always sleeps on my side of the bed, so she can lean up against the wall with her head towards the door. But this morning she was lying on her side facing the top of the bed. I couldn't see her breathing and I jumped out of bed, and all my worst fears were confirmed my beautiful girl was gone.

She has been a little wobbly on the old legs of late, after all she was twelve but apart from that she seemed fit and well, so this has come as a complete shock. Steve swears that when he got up this morning she was still alive, she was in her familiar 'Anibus' pose lying down with her head up facing me. The only thing we can think of is after he went down stairs she lay down and had a heart attack. She looked peaceful and as if she was just lying there waiting for me to get my lazy ass out of bed and take her for her walk.

Right now we're all over the place, we always thought we'd lose Kizzy first and this has floored us.

Just before I go here are a few pictures of my girls.


Sasha and Kizzy enjoying the snow


Where one is the other one is.


The Anibus pose.

Comments

[be-my-precious.livejournal.com]

Omg, hun! I'm so sorry about you losing her! *hugs*

It's so horrible to lose a pet bc they are a part of your family. I know I would be devastated if mine went with no warning like that, and I'd be sobbing too, and there's no limit to how much you do bc it tears at your heart, and it's needed.

If you ever just want to talk, either send me a LJ message or email me ( jennlyn81@gmail.com ). I'll see it right away through email more than through LJ though. It can be anything... I'll be there to talk. Anytime you need something, don't be afraid to reach out to me, I'm always here to listen.

*more hugs*

[sasha-dragon.livejournal.com]

*Hugs* Thank you so much for this, it was such a shock but perhaps it's better this way rather than her suffering.

Thank you again for your offer of help.

[be-my-precious.livejournal.com]

Yes, it's shocking when a pet leaves our lives without warning. We don't know what to do, and it's so hard. I had one pet this happened to, and I was in so much shock I didn't cry until the next day.

More often, though, a pet will start to suffer, and we can start to grieve then. It's still sad and we still cry when it happens, but sometimes it's better for the pets that are clearly suffering to be put at rest.

Ultimately you end up wanting both, but it just can't be that way.

As for help, absolutely anything at anytime. I went through a horrible period and the only person I felt close to was dealing with her mother's death.

Now, with all of you, I know that I have multiple people who I can turn to, and it's usually not the same person bc I feel that all of us possess different qualities.

I'll always be here. I might be a bit.. unstable sometimes, but even then, I would never turn away from someone needing support.

Now I'm rambling, so *hugs*